It's not the way I like to see myself, but I know that deep down I love attention. I think most people do, but I also thrive on chaos and noise and a certain amount of drama. I love it. Hans is like this also, we can't listen to music at a decent level, it has to be full blast or not at all. I know there are mornings that Pete has driven the car to work after I have driven it that he gets in and turns the car on and probably gets really pissed. Especially at that ungodly hour. Pete's not like this, he is quiet and shuts down when there is too much excitement. Olive is like him in that sense. Hans and I though? No way, if there are people awake we are awake, we cannot miss out on a moment of action. We are last to bed and first to rise. This is why I am really perplexed as to how I've handled being sick. I really don't want any reaction to it. I actually don't even want to talk about it. I do have a new, tiny tumor. I will be going back to radiation. They won't be operating so as not to screw my speech or swallowing. I told my parents and I'm letting everyone else know here. Mostly because I hate being out of the loop and I don't want anyone left out. Other than that, I think I will have this done by Christmas and we can move on. This is one area that I just want to be completely solitary. I think I will need Pete a little more than last time but I am going to continue with my Christmas plans and forge on. So, now you know. No secrets on this blog. I will let you also know that I refused the treatment at first but Pete talked me to my senses. I will also spare you the several dark jokes I have thought up as some people are really sensitive( that's right Alex, you never laugh at them!) Instead I will leave you with this video, it is cheesy and 70's. I know that my Dad is not a Cat Stevens fan but I love this song. I have for a long time and this is something Hans and I will have turned up all the way today....
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Cat Stevens? Not so much, but Yusuf Islam rocks!! I like the song and what it says and I do believe that the parts where he's playing the guitar there is a bit of a resemblance to Brett. I always enjoy a good joke so feel free to share. The first album I ever bought said, " For maximum enjoyment this album should be played at full volume". I just assumed this applied to all music, so rock on Mattie and Hans!!
Love always,
Dad
Dad- I have to know what album said that! I think I know but can't quite put my finger on it! I think Yusuf is such a better name than Cat. I'm not too bothered by the religious aspect, I just really like the music.By the way, Hans has picked up some mad breakdancing skills. I mean Turbo Team style, I can't wait until he has a silver covered notebook with his moves! Love you!
The band was Blue Cheer and the album was Vincibus Eruptem. I'll dig around and find the exact wording.I'm not really into the religious aspect of Yusuf but he seemed to be really into a better life for all people which is cool with me. Maybe next Halloween Hans could be Turbo and Pete could be Ozone. Perhaps Siobhan as Special K?
Love you,
Dad
mattie i swear, your humor ranges from slapstick to morbidity! i' m pretty sure you'll be o.k. with your treatment choices. so many advances today...i miss the blog, i haven't been on the computer much this season. you know how funny i like cat stevens!!! and guess what? i think back in the day of the 'album' that statement was on the albums like todays c.d.s have the 'language' statement. i could be mistaken... this comment left with lots of love by auntie norah,xoxoxo
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