Pajama

Grandma Pajama,
Happy Birthday! I wish you were here for us to celebrate with. Instead I know you are having a party with all your brothers and sisters. I am sure Grandpa is entertaining everyone, maybe playing guitar, or his Casio, and you are happy to be with your mama. I miss you everyday and I think of you often. Every party and milestone leads me to wish you were with us. I know this is true for mama too. I am amazed sometimes that all the years later I still have a difficult time talking about you. I am so happy that Siobhan and Oscar still remember you and talk about you often. I talk about you with Hans and Olive and hope that they will remember my stories about you when they are older. I hope that you are able to visit us and that you can see how well they are doing. They are getting so big and they are so fun and smart. You would have so much fun with them. They adore their "big grandma" and Mom i s getting more and more like you. This week has been a hard one Grandma. I am so excited to move and start a new home but I am so sad to leave mom. On Tuesday my friend Joel was killed by a reckless driver and I am having a hard time imagining him gone. Remember he watched Oscar for me when I worked at the preschool? He came over to your house a couple of times with his boys. With Joel, Oscar would just cry and cry so you kept him with you. I would come to pick him up and he would be in your shopping cart next to your rocking chair watching TV with you. You would feed him through the basket and he was perfectly happy as long as he wasn't being held. When he was sleepy you would take him out and sing and rock him. I loved that and we still talk about it. Well, I guess that is it for now. I miss you so much and I hope you know that we are all thinking of you today and always. I love you with all of my heart. Matilda Jane