Yesterday, the boys and I did a little room rearranging. Oscar has had a loft bed for while now. You may remember it from here. Well, he has really not liked it since we moved here. The train makes it shake and he has been scared that he will fall on Hans. While cleaning it and getting ready for disassembling he fell off from the top and I caught him midair. So now I get to remind him of that time I saved his life. He was really scared and shook for a good half hour, I felt bad for him, there is not a lot that scares him. Siobhan is scared of dolls. And one particular picture I have of a doll. I keep it up and make it talk to her and she does not like it. I have put it in her room once or twice and she gets pretty angry. Olive has a life size barbie that she removes from her bedroom at night.She cannot sleep with it in the same room.
Olive is scared of everything, noise, fast movement, not getting her way.
Hans is scared of really different things. Right now he refuses to go upstairs without a chaperon. He will not go on his own, I have tried talking to him about it but he just says he is scared. HE has told me that he hears talking and he doesn't know who it is. He is also scared of people dying. At least twice a day he makes sure that I am not old and I am not going to die. He asks if his Dad will always be alive and that we will never leave him. This makes me so sad. I don't know how to respond because I want to explain the cycle of life but I do not want to make him afraid that we are going away anytime soon. I had this fear about my Grandma growing up and I hated that constant fear of her being gone.
My kids actually are really happy and well adjusted, this is just an example of some of their fears. See where I'm going? That's right, I am still posting lists and this week is 5 things that you are scared of.
#1. The dark. I have slept with either a night light or bathroom light on my whole life. Pete has to have dark to sleep though so that has been a big adjustment for me. Luckily we have always lived near streetlights and I get light that way. Also, sometimes I "accidentally" leave the bathroom light on.
#2. Ants. I just don't like them and they creep me out really bad. Pete bought Hans an ant farm when we lived in Utah and it was gross.
#3. Mice. The kids love to talk about the time a mouse ran across our living room and I jumped in the table.
#4. Knives. Alex and I recently talked about this. I cannot pick up a knife without getting the chills. I am not sure why. Sharon says maybe a past life I died by knife. Could be....
#5. The last one is somewhat related to past lives. When Siobhan was about two months old, I went to a past life Halloween party with my Dad and Sharon. I guess my Dad wasn't aware you were to dress as something you were in a past life and he went as a prisoner. The best part was when everyone went in a circle and described their past life and why they had worn the costume they did. Boy was his face red! Anyway, on the way home Sharon explained a little about her belief in reincarnation and past lives. It was really interesting but the part I had a hard time with is that my newborn daughter and I would not be together forever. This is my last fear. I would have to say that I DO believe that my family and I will always be together, that is just what I feel in my heart. My fear is of that unknown, the what ifs. That was just the first time as a mother that I realized how fierce that love is for your children. The fear of ever losing them is the greatest of all.
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Yikes! I'm scared to share my scares.
1. ALWAYS, the thought of any of my children, grandchildren, husband, loved ones, ever being in pain, both physical or mental, scares me.
2. Being alone at night, scares me. I have never really slept alone. From a sister, to a dog, to husbands. I like a warm body next to me...otherwise I can not rest.
3. Entering dark, slimy water. It just freaks me out. Sort of an African Queen fear.
4. It scares me to think of Alex and Luisa going to work when the weather is so poor and the road conditions so horrible.
5. It scares me to feel that I will never be free of this Lyme disease. And that I will never feel the warmth and love that the woods had always provided me.
1. Rats. I've had a mouse in the house before and that was horrible. I didn't go back in the kitchen for at least a week, but a dead rat next to our back door was even worse.
2. Centepedes. I thought they were just cute little characters on video games until we got here and have had at least a half a dozen monster centepedes in our house. It was even worse when I discovered their stings are poisonous and can be fatal in infants!
3. Not being able to breath. (i.e. scuba diving)
4. Jeremy falling asleep at the wheel or being carried away by a rip current while surfing.
5. My kids getting hit by a car, or drowning, or not breathing in their sleep or a hundred other such fears.
Annisha- I think with all the stories I have heard of Jeremys accidents, I would be nervous also. As far as my kids go, I think my #1 is plastic bags. I always have random "plastic bag" checks in the middle of the night. Is that weird?
Mama- I would agree with the water. I love rivers but do not like lakes. I worry about you alot and also am always on the alert for ticks. I am so glad you have a computer again!
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